Diary entry dated 6th September 2019 (Rādhāṣṭamī):

I’ve lost track of the number of times my ridiculous mind has told me, “She’s the one. She can make you happy.” It is extremely fickle and therefore cannot be trusted. I have to say to my mind, “What are you talking about? Last week you said it was someone else. I don’t even know anything about her.”

In a lecture given in London on 15th August 1973, Śrīla Prabhupāda described the so-called love of the material world as follows: “It cannot be love, because the man and woman…, nobody is trying to satisfy the other party’s senses. Everyone is trying to satisfy his or her senses. A woman is loving a man for satisfying her senses, and the man is loving a woman for satisfying [his senses] … The central point is personal sense gratification … There is no love. It is all kāma, lust. In the material world, there cannot be possibility of love.”

Although my mind likes to tell me otherwise, I know deep down that there is only one queen of my heart, and She is always seated beside its king. Theirs is an utterly pure and selfless love that is inconceivable to a materially conditioned soul such as myself, but I would like to understand it better.

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Diary entry dated 22nd August 2019:

Tomorrow is Śrī Kṛṣṇa Janmāṣṭamī, the anniversary of the Supreme Lord’s appearance on this planet, and the whole Manor community have spent the past few weeks preparing for the festival.

This morning, I went on the forest walk around the lake, and I immediately noticed that the whole forest was buzzing with activity (I don’t know if it’s large enough to be called a forest, but let’s call it that for the sake of simplicity). It appeared that the trees and animals were also busy preparing for Kṛṣṇa’s arrival.

There were birds flying around everywhere, and I could hear the rustling of leaves as more birds scurried about on the ground. As I watched them flitting from tree to tree, I reflected that perhaps they were tidying up their nests to ensure that they looked presentable when Kṛṣṇa came along. Squirrels were also running about, perhaps looking for the best nuts to offer to the Lord, and the trees were stretching out their branches to make sure that He would have sufficient shade as He walked along the path.

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Prayer XVII

Once, the kingdom of Mithilā was struck by a terrible famine, so King Janaka performed a great sacrifice to invoke rain. When that matchless king was ploughing the fields to prepare them for the sacrifice, he unearthed a golden casket containing a beautiful baby girl. My dear Sītā-devī, how fortunate he was to receive you, who are none other than the goddess of fortune herself, as his daughter! From that day onwards, you became the source of limitless joy for all of the residents of Mithilā.

O Jānakī, your pastimes are truly wonderful to hear! As a child, you astonished your father by effortlessly lifting the bow of Lord Śiva, which even the greatest demigods had never been able to lift. As a result, he vowed that only the man who could lift and string that bow would be permitted to take your hand in marriage.

Dear Mother, my heart is often full of anxiety, but every time I stand before your Deity in the temple room, you bestow your soothing smile upon me and all my worries seem to fade away. Thank you for always being so merciful to me and disregarding my long list of faults. And please forgive me for repeatedly taking your mercy for granted.

O Devī, your one-pointed devotion to Lord Rāma is unrivalled. Your only concern in life is to please the Lord by your words, thoughts and actions. When He was exiled to the forest, you did not hesitate to give up all royal comforts and accompany Him, reasoning that a life without Rāma was no life at all. Mother, I beg you to bestow your mercy upon me so that I may also develop exclusive devotion towards the Lord of my heart.

Later, Rāvaṇa tried to separate you from Lord Rāma, for he wanted to use you to gratify his senses, but this ultimately destroyed him. Similarly, I spend most of my time trying to enjoy the material world separately from the Lord, and this is gradually destroying me. Dear Sītā-devī, please help me to realise what you know to be true — that the greatest pleasure in life comes from pleasing the Supreme Lord, not from pleasing one’s own senses.



I’d like to introduce you to a place where there is constant conflict between people wearing different colours and varieties of clothing. For example, those in white shirts insult, abuse and cause harm to people wearing black shirts, and vice versa. Even those who are dressed in different shades of the same colour are unable to get along with each other. It sounds ridiculous, but the place I am describing is real – it’s called Earth.

This planet is full of discrimination and fanaticism on the basis of race, nationality, religion and gender, to name a few. But all of these designations are superficial – they are related to the body, which is nothing but a piece of clothing for the soul. In verse 2.22 of the Bhagavad-gītā, Kṛṣṇa says, “As a person puts on new garments, giving up old ones, the soul similarly accepts new material bodies, giving up the old and useless ones.”

The apparent differences which cause so much division in society are completely irrelevant. The soul, which is who we really are, is not black or white, not British, American or Chinese, not Hindu, Christian or Muslim, not man or woman. The only way to eradicate discrimination from this world is to educate people about this fact.

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The Sleeper Must Awaken

Old dogs teach new dogs old tricks,
fanatically protective
of their box of cats.

Society, in the absence of
thoughtful questioning,
goes down the plughole,
just as trees decline
in the absence of light.

The focus on negativity
and irrelevant classifications
has distorted our field of vision.

Resisting the pressure,
look beyond the box
and judge for yourself.

Infused into the DNA
of disillusioned citizens
is the antidote
that will become the fabric
of a new society.

Heightened consciousness
connects us to the crowd,
planting the seed.

Emerging like a tree,
the age of principles
will see the light of day.

This “found poem” is constructed solely from words and phrases used in the following talk:
Martyn Lewis CBE & Seán Dagan Wood (2015) ‘Can we change the news for good?’
25 March, 2015. London: Action for Happiness.

The Sleeper Must Awaken

Prayer XVII

My dear Lord Rāmacandra, all glories unto You, who are the embodiment of virtue and morality and the source of ever-increasing pleasure for Your devotees.

When I was a child, I would read about Your pastimes with wonder, and it recently occurred to me that the very same Rāma that I heard so much about is now present before my eyes every day in His Deity form. It is only due to Your mercy that I am in such a fortunate position — please forgive me for taking so long to recognise that mercy.

My Lord, just as You entered the heart of Rāvaṇa’s kingdom and destroyed that lusty demon, I beg You to enter my heart and destroy the lust within it. For as long as I can remember, my heart has been a battleground, being the site of my daily battle with lust — please sanctify that ground with the touch of Your lotus feet and vanquish my enemy with the arrows of Your purity.

Up until now, I have tried to fight the battle alone, but now I finally understand that without Your help, I will never be able to overcome the lust which keeps me away from You and which threatens to tear apart my spiritual life.

Rama slays Ravana


At this week’s Wisdom Wednesday session at Bhaktivedanta Manor, Bhakti Vijñāna Goswami gave a wonderful talk on the life of Rāma, an incarnation of the Supreme Lord and the embodiment of virtue, integrity and morality.

The first point that he made was that, like us, God is a person. He then explained that many people find it difficult to comprehend this fact – in this material world, people have faults and make mistakes, so they reason that since the Supreme is perfect, He cannot be a person. But the scriptures of the bhakti tradition emphatically proclaim that the Lord is a person, and that He therefore feels emotions.

However, as our speaker went on to explain, His emotions are nothing like the emotions of this material world, which always result in disappointment and suffering. Rather, He experiences spiritual emotions, which are always blissful. To put it simply, spiritual emotions are the natural emotions experienced by the Supreme Soul and all other souls (that includes you and me).

This material world is characterised by lust, and thus the general mentality is that happiness has to be taken by force. The great demon Rāvaṇa was very attracted to Sītā, the beautiful wife of Lord Rāma, and believed that she could satisfy his desires, so he kidnapped her. Rather than bringing him happiness, however, this act led to his destruction.

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